I found myself fallen out of a trance since a few months ago. I go through everyday feeling as if I’m not orchestrating my own actions directly. All I do is go to my work at 8am and then come home to sleep at 11pm. And that pattern replays itself all throughout my life. Nothing bad really happens to me but there’s not really much to enjoy either. Is it because we all couldn’t travel due to covid that make me feel this way? I really don’t have an answer. The only thing I knew for sure is I go through every week doing the same things just so I can earn more and sustainable while my soul slowly died.

I feel sometimes that I am like a robot 🤖 in some parts of my lives. I try to be “productive machines” all the time and not give myself time to rest or feel. In a capitalist society where our value is determined by how much we can produce and our outputs, it’s difficult to not want to be a robot. It’s difficult to not want to be someone who can study or work all day and still have energy later to keep that production going.

At this point deep down I know I’m not working at the right path through life but I have no idea how to stop myself from becoming some type of mindless drone. I think staying in the nest means life feeling safe and we are protected.

Can someone reset this autopilot me?