Colony made me think harder than a zombie movie should

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I finally watched Colony, the new film from Yeon Sang-ho, the same director behind Train to Busan. The moment I saw his name on another zombie movie, I already knew I had to watch it. His earlier work set such a high bar that I walked in with expectations, maybe unfairly high ones. I was bracing myself for more of those fast, snarling zombies tearing down a train carriage. What I got instead quietly messed with my head, in the best way.


(Heads up: spoilers ahead.)


The zombies in Colony are on a completely different level. They are not just mindless bodies chasing the nearest warm thing. They have some kind of consciousness. They learn. They communicate with each other. There is a genuine intelligence in the way they move as a group, almost like they are thinking as one. Set them next to the zombies in Train to Busan and the difference is night and day. These ones have evolved, and that single idea is what kept me thinking long after the movie ended.


What also worked on me was the setting. Most of the film traps you inside one building, and that claustrophobia does a lot of the heavy lifting. There is no wide-open escape, no running into the sunset. Just walls, corridors, and people slowly realising there is nowhere left to go. A few scenes hit harder than the rest, either emotionally or because they made me sit up and actually think.


The opening: two professors who couldn’t make it work
The film opens at a biotech press conference inside the building, where we meet two professors who used to be married. They have since separated. From what I could tell, the husband simply couldn’t keep up with the way his wife thinks, that standalone, doesn’t-quite-fit-the-mould kind of mind. They are not together anymore, but they still operate side by side like close colleagues. It is a strange dynamic, a little awkward, a little tender, and somehow it works. I liked that the film let them be complicated instead of forcing a tidy backstory on us.


The “vaccine” and the rooftop evacuation route
There is a moment where a policeman gets hold of the so-called “vaccine”, which turns out to be a mastermind rather than a vial. He tries to drag this man up to the excavation roof, and he is so desperate to do it that he shoots one of his own team members along the way. After all that, he still doesn’t make it out. Watching it, one line kept running through my head: when self-interest takes over, people will do whatever it takes (人为了利益 是会不择手段), and their thinking bends to the extreme. It is uncomfortable to watch because it feels true. Strip away the safety nets, and you find out fast what someone is willing to trade.

The wife, the SWAT team, and being believed only once
The professor’s wife heads into the infected building to figure out what is actually going on. Because she is seen as the more influential voice, she is the one sent to speak to the authorities. She tells the SWAT and government teams that if they kill that first person that gets infected, everything will stop. So they hunt him down via CCTV search and kill him. However, it doesn’t stop. It gets worse. Most of the SWAT team ends up infected and turns, right in front of everyone. That scene taught me something blunt about how big organisations work. The moment your call turns out wrong, you only get believed once, never twice. Later, when she insists they have to kill the person carrying the vaccine (which is the mastermind), nobody listens. They have already written her off as someone who lied, and by then everyone is just trying to save their own skin. The tragedy is that she might have been right the second time. It just no longer mattered, because trust had already left the room.

What I took away

A few things stuck with me after the credits rolled.
1. When self-interest is at stake, people will do almost anything, and their thinking slides toward the extreme (为了利益 不择手段). The film keeps showing you this, quietly, until you can’t unsee it.


2. The whole “collective organism” idea is fascinating and unsettling at the same time. If humans could be controlled and merged into one mind, sure, everyone would move in perfect sync. But that is just groupthink with extra steps. The price of all that harmony is the freedom to decide for yourself.


3. If you always follow the crowd and never voice your own opinion, you slowly lose the ability to make your own judgement at all. Use it or lose it, even when it comes to thinking.


4. Which leaves me with the question the whole film kept poking at: is being the one who doesn’t fit in (不合群) actually a flaw? Or is it just having a mind of your own?


For a zombie movie, Colony left me chewing on far more than I expected. And here is the part I love. The Korean title, 군체, literally means “collective body”. Once you know that, the film stops being just a horror flick and turns into a quiet question about how much of yourself you quietly give up, just to belong.

That last question is the one that followed me out of the cinema, because it is one I have lived. I have spent most of my life not quite following the script everyone else seemed to be reading from, and for a long time I assumed that made me the problem, the one who didn’t fit. Colony made me wonder if I had it backwards. Maybe the people who never break from the group aren’t safer, just quieter. And maybe being a little 不合群 was never the flaw I thought it was. Maybe it was just me, holding on to the right to think for myself.

Making Choices: Navigating Life and Work Dilemmas

Making choices is never easy, especially when it comes to our careers. We are constantly faced with decisions that have the power to shape our future and impact our lives in significant ways. Whether you’re considering a new job opportunity, starting your own business, or trying to figure out the best path for your career, it’s natural to feel overwhelmed and uncertain about what to do.

In this post, we’ll explore some of the common challenges people face when making life and career choices, and offer some tips to help you navigate these dilemmas and make decisions that align with your values, priorities, and goals.

1. Understand What Brings You Joy and Fulfillment

One of the first steps in making career choices is to understand what truly brings you joy and fulfillment. Whether you’re considering a new job opportunity or starting your own business, it’s essential to think about what kind of work you find meaningful and rewarding. By taking the time to reflect on your passions, skills, and values, you can make choices that align with what you love and bring you closer to your goals.

2. Consider Your Personal Values and Priorities

Another key factor to consider when making career choices is your personal values and priorities. What do you want to achieve in your life? What kind of work-life balance do you want to maintain? By taking the time to reflect on these questions, you can make choices that align with your beliefs and bring you closer to the life you truly want to live.

3. Embrace the Uncertainty

Making life and career choices can be overwhelming and uncertain, but it’s important to embrace the unknown and trust that you have the strength and resilience to handle whatever comes your way. Life is full of surprises, and sometimes the unexpected turns out to be the best thing that ever happened to us. So, instead of living in fear of making the wrong decision, embrace the uncertainty and trust that you have the ability to handle any outcome.

4. Prioritize Your Well-Being and Happiness

Your career is just one aspect of your life, and it’s important to prioritize your well-being and happiness. Whether you’re considering a new job opportunity or starting your own business, make sure that your choices align with your values and bring you closer to the life you truly want to live.

It is a fact that making life and career choices can be a daunting task, but it’s essential to trust in your abilities and make decisions that align with your values, priorities, and goals. Remember, life is short, so let’s make choices that bring us closer to the life we truly want to live. May my choice reflects my hope, and not my fears.

“Some of our important choices have a timeline. If we delay a decision, the opportunity is gone forever. Sometimes our doubts keep us from making a choice that involves change. Thus an opportunity may be missed.” – James E. Faust

It’s the Environment

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Most of us go through life unaware of how our environment shapes our behaviour.

When we experience “road rage” on a crowded freeway, it’s not because we’re sociopathic monsters. It is because the temporary condition of being behind the wheel in a car, surrounded by rude impatience drivers, triggers a change in our otherwise placid demeanour. We’ve unwittingly placed ourselves in an environment of impatience, competiveness, and hostility – and it alters us.

Our environment can be the angel on our shoulder, making us a better person – like when we find ourselves at a weeding or class reunion. Everyone is hugging and promising to stay in touch and get together real soon. We are altered by the change. We forget our promises. We don’t follow up. We don’t stay in touch. Our environment elevates us, the other erases the good vibes as if they never happened.

Some environment lure us into acting against our interest. That’s what happens when we overspend at the mall. We have chosen to place ourselves in an environment that, based on past experience, will trigger the urge to buy something we neither need nor want.

So why don’t we do what we know is good for us?

Blame it on a fundamental misunderstanding of how our environment shapes our behaviour. It’s a choice between competing environments. Because we don’t appreciate how our environment influences our choice, we fail to make the right choice.

But for now let’s absorb and wallow that our environment is a relentless triggering machine. If we do not create and control our environment, our environment creates and controls us. And the result turns us into someone we do not recognize.

“In the end that was the choice you made, and it doesn’t matter how hard it was to make it. It matters that you did.”
Cassandra Clare, City of Glass    

 

 

The Future Isn’t Now

“What matters is to live in the present, live now, for every moment is now. It is your thoughts and acts of the moment that create your future. The outline of your future path already exists, for you created its pattern by your past.” – Sai Baba

Going my own way, down a path no one has ever forged, is scary. It’s not enough to be curious and to be myself; I’ve actually got to do real work. Lately, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about my future. I’ve always been employed. My job requires me to work less than twenty-five hours monthly as a full-time assistant teacher in an enrichment centre. The rest of my time is being utilized to do badminton coaching, private tutoring, and studying part-time degree program.

I’m very concerned as I can’t visualize my future after I’ve graduated from university. I even wrote an email to my school professor to seek for advice if I wish to pursue a career in psychology, i.e. to be a psychologist or any other related career, in Singapore.

It’s easy to get tipped up or overwhelmed with questions like, “What do I do next?” or “What happens if?” when all that matters is, “Where do I start?” So let’s do exactly that, and start dealing with some of the trickiest issues we’ll face along the way.

Sometimes, I get ahead of myself before I even begin. I started thinking about next steps, five years down the road, what-ifs, or how it could all fail at a later date.

Anxiety creeps into me. What I’ve realised was that I focus on the future, which hasn’t happened yet, and I have no way of predicting. This cuts into focusing on the present. Turning my attention to be able to focus on the present requires real effort. It means doing what’s required, right now – and success still isn’t guaranteed. But if I don’t do the work, nothing will change, so why not at least try?

Finally, I came to a conclusion that I’ve been spending a second thinking about tomorrow that requires me to stop thinking about the work I should be today. I should spend my time worrying about what’s now, not what’s next. It’s the only way to ensure I do meaningful work regardless of an outcome I cannot predict or set.

“The future rewards those who press on. I don’t have time to feel sorry for myself. I don’t have time to complain. I’m going to press on.” – Barack Obama